My appointment is at 10 am tomorrow.
Venus (the internet name i've given to the group counsellor and foodpack dealer) made me the appointment after gasping about "how mad everything has gone around here".
Yeah, thanks, Venus.
You've bought yourself a francise and you're busier than youve ever been and you're gleefully relieved and gaspingly surprised at just how many of us £66 pounds per week people are coming through your door every hour of every day.
Me, however, ...well, Venus, you know, its like this....I'm not doing too well in my own business, Its like, for the last two years its been ok, ive actually made more than i need to spend, and this year is looking really sweet, i think i may even earn enough to qualify to pay some tax!!! Yeah, come to think of it, its only the first four years of the last six years, that have been scary, frustrating and agonising, as i worked and didn't earn enough to pay my own way.
I had to keep going, though, so that i could continue with university and gain my qualification - which i have now just done - hooooooo-bloody-ray.
anywya, I'm luckier than a lot of people, in that i had a property i could remortgage to get me through.
think i'm definately out of the worst, and i might even be in the clear from now on.
I wonder whether Venus has any concept of being trapped in an almost state of poverty, and getting fatter and fatter in about the same proportions of increase as that of her frustrations, disapointment and gloom.
I wonder whether Venus was ever fat. Ever Obese. I wonder whether she has been through the lighterlife program. I wonder whether she has starved herself for 6 months.
I do hope so.
I think t will help.
I will certainly respect her anyway.
She'd probably not even have to talk. I'd just think, "Well, if you've done it then..."
I'm not holding out much hope of wonderful therapy on this program. Yeah, i think that i've realised that the therapy is not particularly going to be high quality.
I am prepared for that.
And still I'm going for it. (today i've been questioning - should i even go? I mean, i could buy Cambridge Diet, which is exactly the same thing, and forgo the group counselling and save myself about £50 per week.)
But, no.
I'm going to gve it all.
I'm trusting them that they have provided an adequate program.
Brilliant, probably not.
Adequate?
I hope so.
And if its not...well, then...i just have to make the best of it that i can.
I'm going to follow the starvation program.
I'm doing it.
I'm losing 6 stones.
And i'm doing it this year.
