I'm doing my blog early because i am starving and restless and craving food. I think this will distract me.
Today i read another inspiring blog - Eira's blog. She's amazing. SHe was about 18 stones i think, and now she's just bought size 10 shorts and is wearing them!!!!!
I can't imagine the joy. It all seems so far away.
Today started out good. I had my bar at lunchtime, and then a shake at 3 oclock. But since then i have been very hungry. I've had 6 litres of water (the last two were carbonated) and i still feel hungry.
I am not going to eat.
I will not have another bar (even though i am very tempted). If i fail now, there's no hope.
No No No.
No cheating.
No swaying from the rules.
No adapting the diet.
The reason that it is designed as it is designed is so that i lose as much weight as is possible. And that is why i am doing the diet.
It only works if I do it.
If i change it then i will not get the results that the diet is designed to produce and results that are mine for the taking.
There, i think i've talked myself back into sticking to it.
This afternoon i contacted two of our LL group members. The first one hasn't been doing it. I was absolutely astonished.
She said that she tried to get them down but kept retching and so decided that she could not do the diet.
I told her that i thought it was the lumps (she had been shaking it up in the shaker that LL provide - but its rubbish - its all lumpy) and i explained how i have been using the blender and that way they are ok.
she said she'd have another go because she was inspired by me (that wasn't my intention - if she wants to quit its up to her!) But actually i am so glad that she has decided to hop on the LL wagon again. Of all the group members, she is the one that i most liked and i could choose someone like that as a friend.
The other member that i contacted has done it before. Apparently she did it almost 2 years ago and lost 2-3 stones which she hasnt put back on. I think she said that she had something to eat and that was the end of the weightloss. (remember - do not stop even if your weight loss is going great - do not stop until the end). Anyway, she's obviously an old hand at this game and wasn't suffering at all. In response to my bemoaning the hunger and cravings she said for me to drink more water. She said that since it was hot to add on another 2 litres (So that will be 8 litres altogehter).
So i have had anoter two litres and i still have two more litres to drink. Additionally i have two packs left.
Its almost 7 pm now and i have managed to get into the evening, thank goodness. It will soon be 8-30pm and time for an eviction out of the BB house. I hope that Nicky stays, shes great fun. So that means i want Sam out. Sam is doing my head in, i can't stand that grinning, and the moany tone to his voice, and those wide eyes! They are so spooky.
I have decided to postpone cooking any of the packs even though i have found the recepies on the internet.
Venus hasn't told us how to do them - so i guess you're not supposed to do them yet (for best weight loss results).
My idea is that i will have the plain packs for the first two weeks - i am going to be on this diet for a long time and i will need ways of making variety of tastes and textures once time goes on and i get utterly sick of no proper food.
I can imagine that i will be delighted to experiment with things by then, it will be such a boost - so i dont want to spoil that.
I wonder how many people stop doing the diet.
What will happen if they start dropping out? Will Venus wind the group up? Will we have to go into a different group? I do hope they all keep doing it - but obviously people do drop out.
I guess that two of them will drop out, at least. Maybe three (the one i spoke about earlier). Of the other two potential drop-outs one seems scared and nervous and unconvinced that it will work, and the other one is very bolshy and she is almost laughing about it and i wonder whether she is treating it as a game.
Surely that attitude is doomed?
This is, after all, serious stuff, is it not?
If we don't lose weight we might die.
And certainly we put ourselves more at risk of dying, and getting medical conditions by being this weight.
And of course, we are not really living, socially speaking.
Well i know i'm not. I can't speak for them.
Suddenly the urge to eat has gone.
