Day 36 of 183. 147 days to go.
“Kites rise highest against the wind, not with it" – Winston Churchill, British prime minister.
I had to think about that one for a bit. When your coasting along with a lucky current of air, the wind is doing all the work. But when you're up against the wind, you have to angle yourself and push back in order to soar. And when you do, you rise higher.
I'm up against the wind.
I think i'm getting the hang of angling myself these days.
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i realised that if i maintain the average of 3lbs per week, that in order to get to ten stones it will take me another 15 weeks of no-food dieting. Thats another 105 days. and it will take me up to the end of october / start of november.
i have an important party in the middle of november. One that is an annual event, where roughly the same people went last year. I'd like to look nice for that weekend away and look great at the party. By then, at an average of 3lbs per week, i could be about 9 and a half stones. That is a nice fitting size 12 clothing. - ooh imagine the nice clothes i could be wearing by then. 
Last year i was photographed there, like everybody else, and then all the photos were shown on the screen in the ballroom when the disc jockey was on!!!!! it was horrendous seeing a twelve foot version of my, very dolled up but also podgy, self. It would be nice to see a normal sized version of myself, looking dressed up.
I can't believe that i have managed over 5 weeks on a diet and not veered off the diet once. Tonight it's really sunken in for the first time. I'm very pleased with my acheivement. I've NEVER before stuck to a diet PERFECTLY without cheating AT ALL. [pat, pat, pat] 
i deserved those pats on the back.
There are just under nine weeks of the first phase of lighterlife left to do. In one and a half weeks i will be half way through. I think i shall phone big woman soon and let her know how i'm getting on. She did ask me to keep her informed with every 7 lbs lost.
I wonder how much she's lost now. She was on about week 5 or 6 when i started, so she must have been on the diet for 10 or 11 weeks by now. At 6 weeks she had lost 2 stones, so at 10 or 11 she may have lost three and a half or four!!!!!
Must ring her tomorrow.
Will let you know.
