Day 44 of 183. 139 Days to go.
Friday.
On tuesday evening, after the weigh in this week (see post previous to this one) I ate two of the LL bars, one after the other, thinking, "it'll be alright, you can make it up later by having a day without one".
Then wednesday I had a bar for breakfast and half way through the day i had another one. Then at tea time i had yet another one!
I tried to stop myself, but in response to my internal, "No, dont" I heard myself think, "Oh Sod it! Just have it, Just have it" in a very firm and quite aggressive tone.
Then on thursday i did same. 
Bearing in mind that there are only seven bars per week, and I only go to the LL meetings on a tuesday evening, by thursday afternoon i had eaten all of the bars!
Of course this means that for evey day thereafter this week i cannot have a bar. I will be hainv four liquid packs per day, instead of 3 liquid and one solid. 
I'm bored.
I want to eat.
I'm not going to, however.
I havent come all of this way to stop now.
On tuesday, at day 50, i shall be half way through the first LL stage of 100 days.
So far i have lost one stone 9, i think.
I have to lose the three stones in 100 days. So, with eight more weeks to go now (including this one) i need to lose 1 stone and 5 lbs. Thats about an average of 2.3lbs per week.
I hope that i do make it. I shall weigh 11 stones and 9lbs by then, and i should be into a size 14 clothes. That will be really nice. 
I'm going to keep going.
I havent exercised like i said i would.
Its too hot.
When it cools down i will exercise.
I get soooooooo tired so easily.
I will have to do what i can manage though, won't i?
I suppose this is a crisis time.
Oh well, i shall survive.
